I am just mentally exhausted.
It’s been so much harder to hear those ‘words’ than I expected.
But, with all things that are hard to bear, I’ve just got to process it. Live in it. Embrace it, whether I want this for my daughter or not. It just is. It is who she is, and the truth is, I wouldn’t want her any other way.
Putting my head in the sand just is not an option. I’ve got a daughter to take care for. To love. To teach just how fearfully and wonderfully made she truly is.
And the fastest way from here to where I need to be is straight through all the muck and the mire.
So for now, I trudge forward until I fall again into tears. And then I rest again at His feet. I don’t know how long it will take to get through this, I just know He is carrying me. And even more importantly, He is carrying Vivienne.
My sister and her kiddos flew in Tuesday night. A visit we’d planned months ago.
Perfect timing, indeed.
And to say it’s been a blessing would be a huge understatement.
We’ve spent the last two days at the beach.
Enjoying the weather. Enjoying the ocean. Enjoying the blessing of family.
Most of all, enjoying this littlest blessing in our family.
And holding her closer than ever.
Thank y’all for all the words of support and encouragement. God is so good, we feel so blessed by all the prayers that have gone up on behalf of our girl.