gawsh. the fourth and final chapter.

Disclaimer: if you're not up to speed on "gawsh", be sure to check out part 1 and part 2 and part 3. If you have a couple spare hours. Just sayin'.Okay, back to the story, right?I left off with our stepping out in faith.Yeah. We've been doing a lot of that lately. In fact, when I shared about my broken heart, it was at a time when I realized just how far out of my "comfort zone" I had actually stepped.Way, way further out than I've ever been.In January, after Chris and I committed to God and to each other that we would do everything in our power to bring Esther home, … [Read more...]

gawsh. part 3.

If you're not up to speed on "gawsh", be sure to check out part 1 and part 2 before reading here. Alrighty then, now that you've been officially warned to begin at the beginning, lest you get ridiculously confused, we can get back to the story. After my very loooong conversation with the agency that had her file, it felt like there was a crack in the door. Whether or not it would actually open remained to be seen... but I'm not gonna lie, it felt like God was at work. In my mind, we were in the window - time wise - of being able to bring home a second child at … [Read more...]

gawsh. part 2.

So there I was. Walking around with a picture of a precious little peanut, who was not even my child, secretly tucked away in my purse. Huh? I was seriously questioning what the heck was going on with me. But, determined to do all I could... I prayed for this child to find a family. For her heart to stay healthy long enough for that to happen. And for God to reveal to me (and more importantly, to Chris) if we were to play a part in any of this. Several days passed and I was determined not to speak of it... goodness, it didn't make any sense to me, why would I … [Read more...]

gawsh. part 1.

I am so crazy humbled. And just reveling in His loving provision. All y'all that have been praying for us? I don't even think I can muster the words to thank you adequately. I am so, so grateful. And honored. And humbled. Wow. Because those prayers were answered. God has shown up in a really, really big way. And my broken heart? Is history. God, in His mercy, has taken care of that, as only He can. Now I've just got to find the way to share this story with y'all. Because, even if you don't care to read it, I want need to share it. Because it's not … [Read more...]