A while back, I felt like the Lord laid a specific word on my heart… intentional.
1. done with intention or on purpose; intended.
I haven’t responded as I’d hoped or even as I’d expected I would. As in, I fail all. the. time. at being intentional. But the impact of my meager efforts and willingness to become more aware of God’s prompting was significant. I have been so crazy blessed by the way my relationship with the Lord has grown this year. God showed up in all my humble efforts and loved on me, encouraged me and revealed Himself in ways I’ve never experienced. And with each and every glimpse I get of Him, His goodness and His God-ness, the more I fall in love with Him.
And that’s what it’s all about, my friends.
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’” — Matthew 27:37
Recently, I’ve been feeling drawn to a new word. Authentic.
1. not false or copied; genuine; real.
And my hope is to pursue authenticity in how I perceive myself, in how I relate to God and how I relate to others.
Which includes y’all.
I feel like God is leading me to share more openly on this blog about my own journey with the Lord. So, consider yourself warned.
God has already been shining a light in areas of my heart that have long been dark. And honestly, dangerous. Places I don’t even want to go, much less allow in the Holy One. But He is not only willing, He is able. And only He reveals our failures, sin and disobedience in a way that not only brings humility and grief, but also leads to hope and joy. He indeed loves His children with an unfailing, undeserved and unconditional love.
I hope there are others out there pursuing things of God in this new year. Most of all, I hope lots of y’all are pursing God – or rather allowing Him to pursue you. I read this quote from C.S. Lewis, just a few days before Christmas, and was moved to tears. Such a weight on my heart. And it was the weight of just an infinitesimal fraction of the price Jesus paid to rescue us.
Rescue me. And rescue you.
In the Christian story God descends to reascend. He comes down; down from the heights of absolute being into time and space, down into humanity; down further still, if embryologists are right, to recapitulate in the womb ancient and pre-human phases of life; down to the very roots and seabed of the Nature He has created. But He goes down to come up again and bring the whole ruined world up with Him… one may think of a diver, first reducing himself to nakedness, then glancing in mid-air, then gone with a splash, vanished, rushing down through green and warm water into black and cold water, down through increasing pressure into the death-like region of ooze and slime and old decay; then up again, back to colour and light, his lungs almost bursting, till suddenly he breaks surface again, holding in his hand the dripping, precious thing that he went down to recover. He and it are both coloured now that they have come up into the light: down below, where it lay colourless in the dark, he lost his colour too.
Miracles by C.S. Lewis
If you have felt like He is pressing on your heart to follow Him more closely, and are in need of some encouragement in your pursuit of a relationship with Him in this new year, please let me know. I’d love to find a few women to support – and find support in return – as we seek all that God has for us in 2013. Just leave a comment or email me (in the right sidebar) and we can prayerfully take it from there.
Happy 2013, y’all. May we seek to find all He has for us in this New Year.