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now I know

Now I know.

No TA.

Not today.

And “not anytime soon” I was told.

Why did they have to throw that in?

I’ve had my tears. Just a few, though. In a house like this, there aren’t many quiet corners to retreat to for a good cry.

And I didn’t want the kids to be sad. They’re as tired of this wait as I am, I didn’t want them to even know we *could* have heard something today.

Because we didn’t. And evidently we won’t for a while.

As always, I am completely trusting His timing. I know He won’t be a minute late.

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12.17.09 · adoption 43

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  1. Wendy says

    December 18, 2009 at 12:23 AM

    I'm so sorry!

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  2. Leanne says

    December 18, 2009 at 12:24 AM

    I'm right there with you, Stefanie!!
    I feel like a CRAZY person lately.
    I hide my crying in the shower…not saying that's a good thing.
    We all know HIS timing IS perfect, but MAN, this waiting is HARD!
    OK….going to order the Pioneer Lady's cookbook…..I'm sure that chocolate cake will make me feel a LITTLE better.

    P.S.
    I know Karla probably thinks I'm a lunatic. I call her, and email her for the dumbest little reasons.
    I just want to know SOMETHING. ANYTHING.

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  3. Leanne says

    December 18, 2009 at 12:25 AM

    One more P.S. ……..

    I sure don't like the sound of "not anytime soon"!!!!!!!

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  4. Jenna says

    December 18, 2009 at 12:42 AM

    I'm in a different situation, but can COMPLETELY relate! COMPLETELY. There is nothing more faith-building than waiting and complete and total trust in God's plan for your family (and the TIMING of it)!!!

    I'm so sorry you haven't heard anything yet.

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  5. Cindy says

    December 18, 2009 at 1:04 AM

    Oh Stefanie!
    I don't understand either but share your peace with HIS timing. We are just barely waiting…waiting to be DTC. But I share your frustration, you've patiently waiting long enough. Hopefully a nice surprise of some news will arrive soon!
    {{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}

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  6. Desiree' says

    December 18, 2009 at 1:19 AM

    So sorry.. our agency basicly told us the same thing. It doesn't make it any easier.

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  7. Kim says

    December 18, 2009 at 1:21 AM

    I'm sorry. Hopefully the busy Christmas season will make time go faster πŸ™‚

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  8. Shonni says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:29 AM

    I am sooo sorry!!! Hoping that this wait is over soon!

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  9. Kristi says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:30 AM

    "Not anytime soon"? What is that about?
    I'm praying for you and your family! We're only two weeks into the TA wait ourselves and I know that I'm already crazy…

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  10. Holly says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:31 AM

    I personally think it's okay to be sad and to cry…and for the kids to know you are missing your sweet girl. oh what a different picture NEXT Christmas will be πŸ™‚
    BIG hugs from my neck of the woods to your frosty land,
    Holly

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  11. Lori says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:46 AM

    Oh Stefanie, dog-gone it, I'm so sorry! I hate this for you. I'll keep praying.

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  12. Our Family says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:56 AM

    I am so sorry!! And I would ignore the "not anytime soon" – they really just can't know that!!! Hang in there!!!

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  13. Tara Anderson says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:02 AM

    I know it's hard…and I'm glad you've had your tears. They can bring much needed relief! It's not easy trusting God's perfect timing when we have our hearts so set on a particular timeframe of our own…but you're right. He's never a second late!

    Many Blessings,
    Tara

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  14. Jenny says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:03 AM

    I'm so sorry to hear that. I was really hoping today for you. But, I love your faith…even at the toughest times.

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  15. Annie says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:04 AM

    So sorry, Stefanie!!!! Hang in there!!!

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  16. Team Houston says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:35 AM

    I am sorry!! Thinking of you and sending big hugs!!

    xoxo Michele

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  17. Patricia/NYC says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:42 AM

    I am so sorry, Stefanie…and why, oh why, did they have to add the dreaded "not anytime soon"…praying that it's MUCH sooner than that!!!!

    BIG GIGUNDA HUGS to you, sweet friend!!!
    XOXO
    Patricia

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  18. Football & Fried Rice says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:56 AM

    Oh, sweetie – you are right, He won't be late.

    He never is.

    Hugs to you,
    Sara

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  19. Karen says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:07 AM

    So sorry you had bummer news today. I am praying that you (and you agency) get a wonderful surprise for Christmas. Stranger things have happened than TA's showing up earlier than expected. Come on early TA!!

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  20. Rhonda says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:20 AM

    I'm so sorry. Been through it, too. Your time will come when it's right. In the meantime, you have to trust the Lord, which I know you are. Prayin' for you!!

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  21. sweet momma luv u says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:43 AM

    I am sorry : ( . In his time….. just helps us work on our patience.

    Hugs,
    Jody

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  22. Sophie Neri says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:53 AM

    Stephanie, I'm so sorry. I know how difficult the wait can be and when your praying to the Lord to move things along and it seems like He is silent.But even in the silence He is working, we have to lean on Him and trust. I will be praying for you as well. {{{Hugs}}}

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  23. Michelle says

    December 18, 2009 at 9:37 AM

    I'm so sorry, Stefanie. So not the news you were waiting to hear. And yes, why do they feel the need to add "not anytime soon?" So very sorry, Stef!

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  24. DiJo says

    December 18, 2009 at 12:28 PM

    Seriously? I am choosing to believe this is NOT true!
    Call it denial, but that is what I am choosing to take from this post! It's Christmas, and Vivi is waiting for YOU my friend!

    I will be praying for this to be FALSE information!

    Big fat hugs from one waiting for her TA too!

    Love,
    Diana

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  25. Beach Mama says

    December 18, 2009 at 1:46 PM

    I am so sorry you are having a longer wait. When we adopted our Princess we got caught up in all of the CCAA changes (2007). We waited like 180 days for our LOA. People logged in after us were receiving theirs, but not us. When our TA came, we couldn't travel. We had to send it back near expiration and request a new TA be issued. Total time waiting? 10 months. But God did AMAZING things in our family during that time. We knew it was His timing, but it still was hard. Sending cyber hugs out to you today.

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  26. mylilchunkymonkey says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:05 PM

    Stefanie, I am so sorry. We are praying for you all. It's so hard, I know, to trust in His timing for things but just be assured that He wants her with you and He will get it done!

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  27. Mandi says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:09 PM

    I am right there with ya in checking RQ every 5 minutes. We are waiting on our LOA today is day 81. I still have hope we will travel before March 11 (Drew's 4th birthday).

    As I pray for our LOA I will also include you getting your TA

    Hugs

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  28. Julie says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:15 PM

    I'm sorry, Stephanie. ((((hugs))))

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  29. Janet and Kevin says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:44 PM

    Oh Stephanie,

    I am so sorry! We are also waiting for our TA to come. Every day is so long waiting. Praying for God to speed things along for the both of us!

    In Christ,
    Janet, Kevin, Ted, Philip, and waiting for TA for our Eli

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  30. Jean says

    December 18, 2009 at 2:57 PM

    Oh Stefanie- I am so sorry- it is so hard to wait. It is down right painful.

    I have my good cries in the shower. It helps a little.

    I ordered 2 of the Pioneer Lady's cookbooks and they have arrived!! One for me and one for our older daughter Kate!

    Praying that it arrives soon!

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  31. Karin says

    December 18, 2009 at 3:16 PM

    I am so sorry. πŸ™ The waiting is so very hard. Big hugs!!!

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  32. Chris says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:02 PM

    So sorry…. πŸ™

    And I just emailed you….

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  33. Jenn says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:09 PM

    Praying for you!!!

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  34. connie says

    December 18, 2009 at 4:32 PM

    Stefanie, I'm so sorry! The waiting is so very hard. You know the truth, His timing is perfect and the moment you hold Vivi the agony of the wait will fade away.
    Sending hugs your way!
    PS. I love the techy age we're in and the info we can get…but sometimes (only for a moment) I wished for the days of knowing nothing until the phone rang.

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  35. M3 says

    December 18, 2009 at 5:13 PM

    Oh I'm sorry!! Sending big hugs. Oh, and hopeful thoughts for soon, soon, soon.

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  36. Shanti says

    December 18, 2009 at 5:24 PM

    I'm so sorry. =(
    And you're right–even though it's hard to see right now, His timing WILL be perfect. ~~hugs~~

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  37. Wife of the Pres. says

    December 18, 2009 at 11:25 PM

    I'm sorry Stefainie.It will come, but have a good cry and know God understands when our hearts are broken. Here's a {{{HUG}}} from the South!

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  38. Amy says

    December 18, 2009 at 11:30 PM

    Booger! that really stinks. I know as you, it will all be the perfect plan in His perfect timing but it is just so hard to wait for your baby. Big hugs sent your way this evening.
    Blessings,
    Amy

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  39. Stacy says

    December 19, 2009 at 12:05 AM

    So sorry! I have to always remind myself that God sees the unseen and the unforseen! Continue to pray that God prepares your sweet Vivi's heart during this wait!! I'll be praying for you!

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  40. Lisa says

    December 20, 2009 at 12:33 AM

    So sorry that they didn't use more gentle words…God has your timing all planned out of when you will "see" Vivi! I know that you also know that but we all have a mothers heart and just want our kiddos with us "now".
    Your time is coming…

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  41. Wife of the Pres. says

    December 20, 2009 at 4:46 AM

    OK, I was thinking, what does "not anytime soon" mean anyway???!!!

    OK, if, we got ours in record speed and you got yours about the same time and that meant we would be in China at the same time possibly … well that would be TOO COOL!

    'Cept The Prez is probably going without me … so I guess you'd have to introduce yourself and then he'd have to acknowledge you as a "real" friend and not one of my "fake" friends since he would have MET YOU IN PERSON.

    I'm just sayin … it COULD happen if mine came really quick and yours came then too. But what I'd like more is to see yours come on Monday morning!

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  42. a Tonggu Momma says

    December 20, 2009 at 7:45 PM

    Oh, Stefanie… I am so very sorry. *sigh* Not what you want to hear just before Christmas, but you are right… focusing on the good helps us weather the storms.

    Reply
  43. rem says

    December 21, 2009 at 5:59 AM

    I'm sorry! πŸ™

    Reply

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