I’ve thought to start this post a dozen times.
But I haven’t been able to form the words.
It seems there is no way to say it, without saying it.
And to say it hurts so, so much, it steals my breath away.
Our beloved Esther has passed away.
We got a call from our agency late on Monday.
And we were shattered.
Sweet Esther Adaline,
We will not hold you, this side of heaven.
We will not tousle your black hair.
We will not smell your sweet skin.
We will not snuggle you under warm blankets and cover your cheeks with goodnight kisses.
And we ache and struggle under the weight of these truths.
So we cling to the knowledge that you will be in our hearts, always. Our beloved daughter. Our Esther.
And to our belief that His plan is a good plan, and that He is trust worthy. Even when the path is unclear.
We trust that He brought you into our lives for a purpose, precious one. You are so loved. And it is such an honor to consider myself your mother, if only in my heart.
You changed us, Esther. You changed us from the inside out. We will be forever grateful for the chance to love you, fight for you, dream for you, pray for you.
May you rest now, with a heart perfectly healed, in the arms of your Father.
With all our love,
Mama and Baba